![::shudder::
I was looking through photos to post of our mini reunion in just over a week. And. ::shudder::
I’m so glad I’m doing something about this, and not waiting till it’s “too” late and so much harder!
[ps, we were on the field in the horseshoe! it was kind of awesome]](http://24.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_l2mn5eIPCR1qa96dgo1_500.jpg)
::shudder::
I was looking through photos to post of our mini reunion in just over a week. And. ::shudder::
I’m so glad I’m doing something about this, and not waiting till it’s “too” late and so much harder!
[ps, we were on the field in the horseshoe! it was kind of awesome]
Progress…
Progress…
It’s a journey, but I’m already on it…
![More visual spam about me. I know I’ve lost 30 pounds now. And I know that’s a big deal to a lot of people. That’s all some people ever need to lose, and that’s awesome and such a big accomplishment.
But I’m still having some difficulty seeing me as anything but “still fat”. As seen right, I still have a big belly, big arms, etc. I can feel in some clothes it’s smaller, but when I look at me in the mirror, it doesn’t feel smaller.
So some of this visual stuff is helping me a little bit. Comparison for me:
Left: End of October 2009-Kickball Hot Dog shirt is 2xl-Pants XL/XXL, and I still don’t look good
Right: Mid March 2010- Cornell Red Zone shirt is L- Sweatpants are [men’s] L- Arms just look the same- There’s still a tummy against the shirt, but the whole diameter of it (I think) looks smaller.](http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_kzspexdgXM1qa96dgo1_500.jpg)
More visual spam about me. I know I’ve lost 30 pounds now. And I know that’s a big deal to a lot of people. That’s all some people ever need to lose, and that’s awesome and such a big accomplishment.
But I’m still having some difficulty seeing me as anything but “still fat”. As seen right, I still have a big belly, big arms, etc. I can feel in some clothes it’s smaller, but when I look at me in the mirror, it doesn’t feel smaller.
So some of this visual stuff is helping me a little bit. Comparison for me:
Left: End of October 2009
-Kickball Hot Dog shirt is 2xl
-Pants XL/XXL, and I still don’t look good
Right: Mid March 2010
- Cornell Red Zone shirt is L
- Sweatpants are [men’s] L
- Arms just look the same
- There’s still a tummy against the shirt, but the whole diameter of it (I think) looks smaller.
And the sitting pictures are always the worst. And this is the only picture I untagged on Facebook. But I do look a lot better than the one from the Springs… Right??
This morning when I was getting ready for work I was looking through my pants and I’m getting ready of any pants 20+. They don’t fit at all and they don’t belong in my closet. When I started this I was at a point where I was a 20 pretty standard, but some dress pants jumped up to the next sizes (!!) but I’m not there anymore, and I have a size 16 that is close to fitting.
Visual reminders….
I can’t believe I just typed all that out for the world to see.
Officially started going to the Colorado Athletic Club today!
I’m really excited about this. Ryah & I walked down together and worked out, went in the hot tub, then walked home. It’s a great environment, and I’m excited to keep going!
Did a mid-week weigh in this morning. After just 2.2 lbs total in my first 12 days (shorter week for the first week), I am down 4.2 since I started (now 17 days).
The bigger change this week:
After getting a little frustrated at the <1 lb for the 2nd week of my lifestyle change on the day before my weigh-in, I went back to the gym the next day and switch programs.
I had been doing the Weight Loss set program, which is an interval program set for 30 minutes. I switched to a cross country training (steadily increasing incline then back down and repeats).
This seems to be working way better for me! I took off yesterday (Thurs 11/5) as in addition to my gym workout, I walked all around Denver with my parents including the climb to the top of the Capitol dome (after walking to the 3rd floor, it was another 150 steps to the top — not a ton, but enough!). Then to keep my 5 days/week plan, I’ll wait to meet my parents in CO Springs till after I work out tomorrow morning as there isn’t a gym at the castle we’re staying at there!
Feeling good today :)
GPOYW — just prior to the first time on the scale…
Something I’ve been avoiding… but can’t any longer!
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Got the result of the the first weigh-in. Put it into WW as the start weight, and have the first goal set of 5% loss.
I’ll let you know when I get there!
The beginning is always the hardest right?
Today was harder, but did another 30 on the elliptical.
And then on the cool down walk down a couple blocks I passed the marathon runners. A little intimidating :) But awesome for them!
Post workout, Day 1.
30 minute elliptical. I used to do it all the time, I can do this, right?
Took this after my hair cut on Oct 15.
I look cute, enough. But not good enough.
Enough is enough and the time to start is now. I’m tired of not liking me, and I’m tired of making up excuses about it. I’m terrified of failing, and I probably always will be. But turns out escaping failure by not trying isn’t really good enough anymore.
I’m bringing this into the online world and tumblverse in order to push me more. If it’s writing it’s harder to back off.
I’m for real this time. I really hope I am.
