---

I've Moved!!! Please follow me at: Less Than 260

GPOYW

::shudder::

I was looking through photos to post of our mini reunion in just over a week. And. ::shudder::

I’m so glad I’m doing something about this, and not waiting till it’s “too” late and so much harder!

[ps, we were on the field in the horseshoe! it was kind of awesome]

I was feeling fat this morning. (Bingey sort of day on Wednesday & pizza last night)

So I have to remind myself that I am still less fat than I used to be. And that has to be good…

[poor photo quality, it came out dark so I lightened it up so I could see my legs better]

GOPYW: Unexpected-Haircut Edition

So I finally got the haircut I’ve been putting off for so long a week ago. I didn’t plan it well and just walked into Great Clips (not a high quality place) but I’ve had successful haircuts there before!

I got in and we chatted about what I wanted, I said I wanted it cleaned up and trimmed back up to sit on my shoulders again, long layers and angled in the front. Pretty standard for me.

When she finished it was an inch longer on the left side and sitting at my chin. I was so annoyed and upset. I went back in and they were fantastic about getting it fixed and evened up for me (thankfully the original girl wasn’t there). And I was trying to straighten it out (I’ve been a straight kick lately) but my hair was having none of it. It took a couple days but I finally figured out what my hair wants to do and so I’m a curly, slightly sassy mess for a while!

It’s definitely growing on me, a nice change.

(The best is people have commented on it and said it was a bold change, and was I nervous to chop it all off) (My only response is, nope! it was an accident) 

Progress…

Progress…

It’s a journey, but I’m already on it…

GPOYW: August 2009 Baseball Edition. Went to the Rockies/Mets game last night and took *much* better pictures. I think looking at pictures of me pre-October 2009 is a huge part of keeping me motivated.

I just *felt* better last night being out. With a lot of the same people that were present here with about 6 additional people, most I haven’t seen since then, and even just running up the stairs to the Rockpile.

I know I’m not there, I know I have a long way to go. But knowing that I’m getting there makes this worth it too!

GPOYW :: My friend’s wedding last summer. This was just posted to Facebook a couple weeks ago. 

I’m glad I decided that I’m changing my life before I saw this. So when I ::shudder:: at least I know I’m well on my way not to be this anymore.

More visual spam about me. I know I’ve lost 30 pounds now. And I know that’s a big deal to a lot of people. That’s all some people ever need to lose, and that’s awesome and such a big accomplishment.

But I’m still having some difficulty seeing me as anything but “still fat”. As seen right, I still have a big belly, big arms, etc. I can feel in some clothes it’s smaller, but when I look at me in the mirror, it doesn’t feel smaller. 

So some of this visual stuff is helping me a little bit. Comparison for me: 

Left: End of October 2009
-Kickball Hot Dog shirt is 2xl
-Pants XL/XXL, and I still don’t look good

Right: Mid March 2010
- Cornell Red Zone shirt is L
- Sweatpants are [men’s] L
- Arms just look the same
- There’s still a tummy against the shirt, but the whole diameter of it (I think) looks smaller. 

And the sitting pictures are always the worst. And this is the only picture I untagged on Facebook. But I do look a lot better than the one from the Springs… Right??

This morning when I was getting ready for work I was looking through my pants and I’m getting ready of any pants 20+. They don’t fit at all and they don’t belong in my closet. When I started this I was at a point where I was a 20 pretty standard, but some dress pants jumped up to the next sizes (!!) but I’m not there anymore, and I have a size 16 that is close to fitting.

Visual reminders….

I can’t believe I just typed all that out for the world to see.

And… hands down the worst….

I’m sure I sound awful to read especially in this sort of blogging forum. I have zero motivation to go to the gym today. Or the past 5. I’m burnt out and just exhausted. Yesterday was my day off adventure day and we pranced around town with a New Yorker and visit Red Rocks and at least got the heart beat up a little even if for a short period of time

And when we got all the way to the top, just stepping up the seats (it’s about 3 steps/row? good knee high action stuff) to all 69 rows and talking at the top, we were talking about the plan for the week. I don’t have a good reason that I didn’t get to the gym at the end of last week, it just wasn’t a priority. I had to this & this for work, train here, and do this. But I could have, I’m pretty sure if I planned better & made it a higher priority I would have gotten there. So I made sure that I’m going today. And I’m just exhausted.

I’m not falling off any bandwagon, I’m still making good food decisions, and all though it’s not at any rate I’m super excited about, I’ve lost a pound at weigh-in today on my short week since Wednesday.  So I’m still doing okay, just can’t wrap my head and heart around the gym.

Officially started going to the Colorado Athletic Club today!

I’m really excited about this. Ryah & I walked down together and worked out, went in the hot tub, then walked home. It’s a great environment, and I’m excited to keep going!

Did a mid-week weigh in this morning. After just 2.2 lbs total in my first 12 days (shorter week for the first week), I am down 4.2 since I started (now 17 days).

The bigger change this week:

After getting a little frustrated at the <1 lb for the 2nd week of my lifestyle change on the day before my weigh-in, I went back to the gym the next day and switch programs.
I had been doing the Weight Loss set program, which is an interval program set for 30 minutes. I switched to a cross country training (steadily increasing incline then back down and repeats).

This seems to be working way better for me! I took off yesterday (Thurs 11/5) as in addition to my gym workout, I walked all around Denver with my parents including the climb to the top of the Capitol dome (after walking to the 3rd floor, it was another 150 steps to the top — not a ton, but enough!). Then to keep my 5 days/week plan, I’ll wait to meet my parents in CO Springs till after I work out tomorrow morning as there isn’t a gym at the castle we’re staying at there!

Feeling good today :)

GPOYW — just prior to the first time on the scale…

Something I’ve been avoiding… but can’t any longer!

::

Got the result of the the first weigh-in. Put it into WW as the start weight, and have the first goal set of 5% loss.

I’ll let you know when I get there!

The beginning is always the hardest right?

Today was harder, but did another 30 on the elliptical.

And then on the cool down walk down a couple blocks I passed the marathon runners. A little intimidating :) But awesome for them!